Photography: Evan McGinnis
How’s everyone’s start of their week off to? Mine was well,.. pretty rough. Yesterday I had to make the extremely difficult decision to give away the cat I had taken in a couple months back.
For those of you who don’t know, this cat (who I had named May) pretty much just appeared into my life looking very ill about 2-3 months ago. Being an animal lover, I just couldn’t help but not take care of the poor thing so I took her in as if she was my own. I cared for her and did everything I could for her. She was a very old cat, had clearly been abandoned at some point in her life and completely neglected. She was literally skin and bones and I couldn’t get her to put on any weight. She also had a condition where she would howl all night long keeping me up at night every day. After countless vet trips and realizing I could no longer do more for her, I made the decision to take her to the animal shelter yesterday. It’s a safe place for her and as long as she is healthy they will keep her there and take care of her and who knows, maybe someone will adopt her and give her what I unfortunately could not. I do realize, however, that if she begins to worsen in health, they will probably let her go which pains me a LOT but I do find comfort in knowing it will be in peace and she will not be alone.
I do however have that guilt in me because I wish I could have helped her more. I tell myself well, did I try enough? Was there something else I could have done? But, at the end of the day I just had to tell myself that sometimes there are things that are completely out of your control.